I woke today with anxiety– many things to do, concern for time to do them. I don’t often wonder where the food I need for a particular day will come from. I do often wonder where I will find enough time or energy or wisdom. My sinful tendency is to “internalize” these needs, to find an answer within the very “small circle” of my own abilities. What I don’t naturally do, and never would have without the instruction of Christ, is to ask for help. Maybe I feel guilty asking for more, when He has already given so much. Maybe I don’t know whether I need something or just think I do. Or maybe, I need to learn the Jesus-life of open dependency on God. No secrets, no pride, no anxiety, no “days off” from trusting Him. Who knew that the everyday prayer would teach me everyday trust? More on this tomorrow. . .
(re: post from Jan 11)