One of the most difficult things about prayer is to honestly answer the question: “Am I willing to do His will?”. Until I can answer yes, real prayer is impossible. God’s requirements on my life are frequently things I do not want. Sometimes I say “I can’t” (forgive, wait, apologize, face criticism, etc.); often the real truth is I don’t want to. Perhaps that’s why the Bible connects humility with prayer. “If my people will humble themselves and pray…”. Ego demands what it wants/needs. Humility accepts the decision/direction of a Greater Mind. Humbling myself may be the most difficult task of prayer. It is certainly the most often ignored. Our Father. . .thy will be done. I release outcomes to you. I want what you want. I am willing.
I’m reading this post on Feb 1, 11, so I’m a few days late but it really touches a cord in my life. I recently married and a few days after the wedding I was in a huge argument with my mother-in-law. Needless to say that argument has planted a very negative seed in my marriage and it’s only two months in. My husband wants me to be the bigger person and apologize. I know it would be the right thing, because it’s what Christ would have me do, even though I don’t feel that I should be the first to apologize and even though an apology (in my opinion) would mean supporting his mother’s behavior, which led to the argument in my opinion. Well I just wanted to post this because maybe someone somewhere has had this experience and I’d like to know that I’m not alone. I’ll be praying that God will bless me with the courage and obedience to do His will, even though I can’t make myself bend. Be blessed.
Mrs. Clark